Sunday, January 26, 2014

Why I'm waiting

Many times I'm asked "why do you wear a purity ring?" And I decided to finally address the issue.
I was not forced by my parents, church leaders, family or friends to remain abstinent until marriage--it was a choice that I willingly made. And here is why:
1. I believe that sex is a beautiful thing.
2. I believe that sex should be about love and not lust.
3. I believe that sex should not be an accident and something that a person regrets weeks later.
Here’s a cheesy scenario that I use frequently to explain why I’m waiting.
Let’s say that sex is like your favorite dessert  (not literally, but just use your imagination). Imagine your favorite dessert just came out of the oven/freezer—this symbolizes lust. Now imagine sharing your favorite dessert with someone other than your husband/wife—this symbolizes having sex with someone other than your wife/husband. So, let’s say that things don’t work out with you and the person that you had sex with.  A couple of years later you meet the man/woman of your dreams and she/he is everything that you looked for in a person. Okay, so let’s say a few months later you propose. Now let’s say that the person of your dreams has never had sex and they tell you that they want to wait until the night of the wedding. By now you’re probably feeling so horrible, because you shared a piece of your dessert  (sex) with someone that you don’t even think about anymore. You gave a piece of yourself to someone other than your wife/husband. You are basically going to give your husband/wife a chewed up piece of dessert (sex). Imagine how your wife/husband is going to feel each time the both of you have sex; she/he is going to probably be comparing themselves to the past sexual relationships that you had and that is not healthy for either one of you.
I am not trying to preach to anyone, I’m not judging or throwing scriptures at people, and I’m not trying to say that people who’ve already had sex are horrible people.
Recently, bachelor star Sean Lowe and Catherine Giudici were on Jimmy Kimmel Live and talked about how they both decided to remain abstinent until their wedding night. It’s such a bold thing to do in today’s society, and I respect the both of them very much.
Waiting to have sex is not easy at all. We live in a society where lust leads to sex, rather than love leading to sex. It’s not easy waiting, but it gives me a future to look forward to and that’s why I am waiting.
Ashley Nicole

Friday, November 1, 2013

The "n" word

It's at 2:41 in the morning when I get onto one of my many social media websites and begin to realize how my generation has become ignorant with their choice of words.

Over these past few years I've noticed how freely people use the "n" word--it always has bothered me, but it wasn't until this year when I became infuriated with the word and people.

Many rap singers have used this word regularly; it's been a word that is tied into their everyday vocabulary. I've heard in many instances that "it's okay" for a black person to use the word; however when a white uses the word it suddenly becomes "not okay," (Note: they still continue to use the word.)

So, you're telling me that just because a black person can use the word, it's suddenly okay for others to use the word? NO! It's not and it should never be okay.

What many people don't realize is that there is a lot of meaning behind the "n" word. Just because two letters have been cut off of the word and replace with a "g" and an "a" it is still not okay.
This word does not mean friend, even if they use it in a sentence to mean friend.
This word was offensive to many blacks during the period of slavery.
This word was used to show power over the blacks.
This word was used to describe a group of individuals as worthless.
This word was NOT used to mean friend. 

I don't understand how a person of black decent can be totally fine with people using this word every day around them. I'm a Mexican-American girl and every time I hear the "n" word, I'm offended, annoyed, and bothered with the poor choice of words used by society.

I'm truly disgusted with my generation and some of the actions that they are ignorantly involved in.

Ashley Nicole

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Knowledge is a beautiful asset.

I've been a college freshman at Texas State University for almost three months.

My experience here has been so amazing. I can't even begin to explain in words how helpful everyone is. 
I honestly thought I was going to be super homesick, but I feel fine. 

Last month I went home for a weekend and it was so weird to set foot into my own home, my own room, my own bathroom. It felt unreal to take a shower in the confort of my own home. I don't miss home at all. I only miss my family. 

So far I've passed all of my tests (except COMM. I got a 68 on that exam, but according to my professor—the class average was only a 68.) I've made an on all of my papers so far. And I've already made my schedule for next semester. 
I'm not as stressed as I thought I'd be, but maybe it's because coffee is my best friend. 
I'm so grateful for everything that I have thus far. 

Texas State is home to me. 

Until next time, 
Ashley Nicole

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Monday, August 12, 2013

Too many feelings

I honestly don't know how I feel, because I feel too many feelings all at once. 

I'm scared. I'm happy. I'm nervous. I'm excited. I'm anxious. I'm sad. I'm confused. I'm optimistic. 

I move in to my dorm this Saturday! Yes, this Saturday! I'm still in the process of trying to wrap my head around the fact that I'm no longer going to have my family around. I now have a huge responsibility ahead of me. I can't believe that the time is actually here. 
As each day passes by, I'm now realizing the things I'm going to miss, like my dog, my room, the smell of my kitchen, my church, my friends, and most importantly my family. 

I feel scared, because I'm switching to a whole different and new environment. 
I feel happy, because I'm continuing my education, despite the obstacles I'm  facing. 
I feel nervous, because who doesn't get nervous when they're about to meet new people and live in a new city. 
I'm excited, because I'm the first to go to college. 
I'm anxious to fail. 
I'm sad that I won't have my mom and dad with me. 
I'm confused, because I just always am. 
And I'm optimistic, because I always have been. You see, even though I'm feeling all kinds of crazy emotions right now, I know that this is all going to be worth it. Everything I've worked so hard for is now beginning to show. 

Slowly, but surely I'll bring myself to only feel one emotion, happiness. 

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Now I know,

It's crazy how a series of dreams in one night about the same person makes you realize what you have to do in reality. 

It's time for me to let go. It's time to set myself free. It's time to forget about him. It's time to move onto bigger and better things. 

Now I know. 

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Growing Up

Currently sitting in the middle of a room that's about to be packed up.

I can't believe that in 17 more days I'll be in another city. I'm sitting here wrapped up in my newly-washed warm sheets about to shed tears. I'm growing up and it feels like it all happened too fast. 
Yesterday I was just starting my senior year, and now I'm off to college. 

August came too fast.